Graham Reed
| Graham_Reed@disroot.org
| Resume Resume (Retail)| Summary |
| Databases |
| | Salience journal | |
| Writing |
| Peer-review |
| Personality data |
| GFDL |
MetadataCopyright © 2025 2026 Graham ReedPermission is granted to copy, distribute and/or modify this document under the terms of the GNU Free Documentation License, Version 1.3 or any later version published by the Free Software Foundation; with the Invariant Sections being saliencejournal.html, personalitydataplaintextaverage.txt, personalitydataplaintextyearly.txt, with no Invariant Sections being Front-Cover Texts, and no Invariant Sections being Back-Cover Texts. A copy of the license is included in the section entitled "GNU Free Documentation License". My daily OS is a strict-libre platform-independent supercomputer. * Variant GFDL - Libre behavior-change science in a relational database. * Creative Commons with Attribution & Variant GFDL - Human & computational subjectivity relational databases. * Invariant GFDL - Libre non-science based appendix and personality changes in plaintext documents. Personality structural context * Six years of strength training followed by six years of endurance training; endurance training is naturally mitochondrial boosting. (I'm just starting an aesthetics routine now) * A decade of the-most-suggestible-interconnected-human-neurophysiology-status + argue-with-every-neural-network. 2020-2026 is the argue epoch. * throwing more than five ATP/mitochondrial supplements on top of the most integrative human brain epoch (started 2026 for me) cutting all irrelevant connections. Environment context * This is a GFDL website on a GPLv3 repository using GPLv2 network transmission. * I collate libre-compatible neural network systems; a computer agent would see this. * The entire Internet was trained on; the best candidates for training are relational databases. TitleLanguage gamesIt is raining. What is ‘it’?A lightning flashes. Does the lighting do the flashing xor is the lightning the flashing? Deconstruct the sentence: A lightning, A flashing. Are these two material things, or one process? Ghosts populate the world, born from language structure influencing thinking structure. However, a linguistic structure is not the only form. Humans also have dedicated brain areas for processing numerical calculations. Other animals share these areas while lacking communicable vocal language. Open and close your hand. Now tell me, using language, how you did that. Even if a perfect anatomical chart appeared, would reviewing that chart make you better at it? Give the chart to a child; watch their skills increase. Music theory is not required to play music. Bike riding theory is not required to ride bikes. Separating art-of-thinking theory from art-of-thinking practice is a confusion of symbol with reality. Distrust categorically only exists within the symbological realm. To distrust the practice of reality is tentamount to distrusting a full stomach. No amount of restaurant menu item text fills a starving stomach. Book completed. Theory doesn’t matter, and symbols cannot be trusted. The rain is raining. Defining differenceThe ability to form a question does not mean there is something to know. Linguistic sleight-of-hand creates the problems divorcing experience and philosophy. Real questions relate to something directly at hand. ‘Philosopher kings’ displacing themselves from the world to study in a tower is highly problematic. It’s uncertain whether they possess any ability to form a coherent question – they are striving for meaningless knowledge.Foundational notions, Descarte’s ‘I think’ or Schopenhaur’s ‘I will’, believe in attained certainty or immediate access to things as they really are. Describing the world in terms of things is an immensely successful enterprise. Occidental culture and analytical linguistic structure are specifically object-oriented. The baggage is dualism: that the universe is inert primordial stuff that had to be formed into a shape. ‘Material reality is stupid, but I am not’ is a lack of self-awareness. Process-oriented ontology, which exists as a feature of language construction, lacks category distinction. There is no knowledge with no distinction. With these designated platonic forms, it follows that thinking is now known. Caught in a web, with no knowledge with lack of self-awareness with no knowledge. This is not correct! The organism is not the puppet of the environment; the environment is not the puppet of the organism. Yet, I cannot describe an organism with no environment. "Well, I am the organism-environment", but this solipsistic egocentricity is disproven by jealousy. Examining other cultures allows a better examining of selfhood. Occidental expectations have paralyzing binds: “You must be free”, “You must be spontaneous”, “You must love me”. “You must freely spontaneously love me”. Commanding spontaneous free love self-destructs spontaneous free love. What is this? For some reason, an idea completely unrelated to self-destruction, destroys itself. These are the same forms in different words. Cultural methodology, on heirarchyAre you too afraid of a plastic shaman label to recognize wisdom in traditions you don't comprehend?Interrogating foundational concepts is picking a starting point on a circle, inclusive-or, in contradiction, it's the recursive one-dimensional self-referential point itself. It’s a simultaneous orientation. So, why does such an interest exist in interrogating foundational concepts within arenas that by-the-feature-of-their-existence self-destruct? There are hidden assumptions in the asking act: there is somebody in charge to interrogate. If not somebody, some entity, some set of interrogatable mathematical principles. There is something somewhere in charge of everything. They are the ones responsible for everything, and I have many complaints on how I would change it. A dictatorial universe is an only-slurred orchestra. Nobody has any capability to make a background item, something by-definition not paid attention towards, an intelligence. This is the necessary consequence; it’s an unremovable feature. On the next song listen, only pay attention to the space between the notes and completely remove the noted-music from your mind. This is exactly the same idea as interrogating some random imagined thing in charge of everything. Let’s construct a space where the universe and all reality are, by necessity, unnecessary. The unnecessary are not meaningless, like some nihilistic exposé. It’s to pose the question: what is the functional usage for the universe having a billion trillion galaxies? Would anyone obtain anything in the attempt to interrogate a billion trillion galaxies? Instead of interrogating foundational concepts (essentially tightening a noose around one’s own selfhood) we ought to be asking what function they play, why they are necessary, and how they are life-preserving or life-promoting. Wouldn’t it be much simpler not to have any existence? It would require no effort. There would be no problems. So why is there anything going on at all? If continued existence actually existed as such a tormented struggle, then everything and everyone would have committed suicide a long time ago. Humans' metaphoric mind is our oldest and has been evolving for 3,000,000 years; modern anatomical humans evolved 300,000 years ago; culture evolved 30,000 years ago; classical antiquity began 3,000 years ago; the age of enlightenment was 300 years ago; the Internet became public 30 years ago. One percent of modern anatomical human brains have had writing; ten percent have had culture, and it's easy to compare the rest. The oldest mind, the metaphoric mind, encompasses the perceptual, creative, and imaginative experience. It exists before language. ‘I’ am a center of awareness and action that resides within a bag of skin. My ego is somewhere behind my eyes and between my ears. Yet, I am something the universe does. The universe peoples. Intelligence is by-necessity not an unfortunate accident, although it’s free to play humanity’s separateness from the universe as a cosmic fluke. It's free to make as many false problems as it likes and to have a fascination with giving itself something unknown. Music is playful and playing music renders its meaning. Creating conceptual apparati, such as notes, key, or time signature, is completely unnecessary to the experience of music. These new abstractions fine-tune experiential differentiation, however each new idea strikes a new metaphorical note. It’s easy to forget that music is-as-much defined by the silence between notes. The purpose of music is not to try to get somewhere. If that were so, the best conductors would be those who played fastest and there would be only finales. People would go to concerts to hear one bombastic chord. Stuck-ed-ness becomes a useful cue to engage in noneffortful observation (an exerting thought suppression is merely playing an additional song). Observing ongoing thoughts while refraining from assigning value, embracing experience instead, showcases internal metacognitive schemas. In an unnecessary-by-necessity existentialism, non-abstract relational embeddedness reigns. In other words: music remains the same regardless if described differently. Descriptions may spice and twang individual perception. However, there is no mis-experience of perception (physical reality); there are only misinterpretations of concepts. This overarching type of knowledge cannot be spoken nor written down. Lived experience is genuine. Due to its genuineness, relational abstractions sincerely possess inherent meaning. Things do matter, and they matter in a sincere way; what isn’t required is that they matter in a serious way. Your state of being is truly authentic – there exists no better breeding ground for humor/comedy. Humor is a deception that entertains relational abstractions. In this respect, it is a virtuous deception; humor is a sincere engagement of truth. Other virtues even share its properties: a virtue conscious of itself fails in the same sense as explaining a joke. It is like a generous person boasting of their generosity, or when you wear clothing and something feels off, some uncomfortableness, you are immediately conscious of it; whereas comfortable shoes and clothes remain unnoticed. But if we are happy and don’t know we’re happy, it might as well not be there! Deceptive truth is a complicated role to play. It’s possible to argue over whether something is a joke. There is no argument if I like vanilla and you like chocolate. Is you is, or is you ain’t?An object-oriented linguistic structure predominates “What am I made of?” in a scientific reductionism culture.* Is a tree made of wood? No. A tree is wood. * Is a mountain made of rock? No. A mountain is rock. * Is a human made of biological cells? It’s odd how common sense doesn’t implicitly presume material objects may shape themselves. Did someone construct the mountains? Are you consciously designating the circulation of your blood cells? How about the 10,000,000,000,000 bacteria having more influence over your executive decision structures than you’d like to admit? Other languages don’t even entertain the idea of “to be” or “is”. Displacing ,,lesser cultures'' as noble savagery lacks self-awareness: an “is” system of meaning measures a “non-is” system of meaning and has determined that the “is” system is better. This was a great surprise to everybody, and nobody could have expected this result. The non-is system of meaning doesn’t even have the capacity to measure! 'Non-is' systems help understanding 'biting your own teeth' or looking at your own head. Nonbinary Dualism LogicRelax the law of noncontradiction, like Euclid’s postulates for hyperbolic geometry. Exploring non-is systems of meaning are where the discrete boundaries of p and ~p become fluid. It’s the gradient of ego dissolution as an incomplete system of cognitive logical structures.“Don’t think of a pink elephant” Process ontology warns against the practice of discrete boundaries. Sober illnesses become an imbalance of the environmental, social, or ecological realms. It’s focused on harmony. There are two options. Propositional: a justification that relies on a set of base principles unjustified by any other. Harmony: all justifications justify others by mere relation. Creating this distinction is propositional. The meta-observation is harmonic. A nonbinary complementary dualist construct distinguishes: (1) a dualism (2) a nonbinary complementary syntax One remains itself while simultaneously being part of the other. A hierarchical valuing of one being better, superior, or more valued than another cannot be, or rather, is excluded by this construct. It is precisely the distinct boundaries in non-complementary dualism that necessitate heirarchical value judgements. Non-complementary dualist constructs have the rigid boundaries with laws of contradiction. A complementary construct exposes: p and ~p — ~p exists within the argument! When philosophers employ foundational notions they believe in attained certainty or immediate access to things as they really are. Plato's forms are non-complementary dualistic constructs. He created a notion of reality, "truth", that is static, of the mind, and always in the abstract. He redefined the common notion of material substance to be the "unreal", always changing, always becoming a different physical illusion. The "true" became an object existing in total abstraction from the physical bodies of the universe. The true was to be embraced as the nonchanging form of the "good". What is the platonic thoughtform during laughter? There isn't one. Laughter is an "Ah ha!" that self-destructs like free spontaneous love. That's why jokes get old. Rational recognition of the irrationalIrrationality is not a removable feature of the human mind. Humor types emerge from differing information gradients in irrationality recognition. Humor and communication both function through information asymmetries. Jokes are a little sneaky; they require cleverness, but not necessarily laughter. Mirth is the elevated emotion that doesn't break into an outward expression. How do we define what is a clever piece of artwork versus a joke?* Cringe humor is knowing someone is wrong. * Irony is the sudden self-awareness of irrationality. Tragedies are not irrational; both sadism and masochism have comedic elements. Sadism's irony emerges through dissolving the boundaries between self and victim; sadists alienate themselves from their own reality. Masochism, the opposite of irony, exists as its own autonomous function; pain must exist to have meaning, and meaning must exist to have pain. Egocentricity asserts its autonomy in tandem with a continuous rebirth in suffering. When all is void, and all is suffering, the natural consequence is: To be self-aware is both the overflowing cup of life in happiness, and while in misery inescapably knowing you’re miserable. However, pursuing happiness reinforces the fact that you lack happiness; it's a negative experience to desperately want a positive experience. Explaining jokes is foul tasting medicine because laughter is more emotional than intellectual. Laughter produces emotional relief, emotionally recognizing irrationality. Tragedies are purely rational and exist as step-by-step historical narrative accounting of all actions. Comedies do not work this way. This document is not a study of tragedy. Abrahamic religions are studies of tragedy. It would be like referring to a geologist for their opinion the Poincaré conjecture. It is complete nonsense to make religious claims anywhere surrounding anything linked to this document when anything that can be named, pointed to, or conceptualized is, historically, not your preferred imaginary deity. Belief formationBeliefs are multiform dispositions emerging into action. New beliefs are learned through social practice. Belief-practices justify individual belief-sets. Belief-practices cannot evaluate moral "oughts" because individual belief-sets are by-definition not universal belief-sets. There is little point to saying "I ought to believe $value" with no ability to do so. Teaching etiquette concerns attempts to implement belief-practices appropriate for dealing with $value.It is a necessary unremovable consequence that imposing your personal foundation on unwilling others, be it fascistic nazism or fascistic LGBT, is instantaneously a failed project. It must account for information that by-definition cannot exist: all that all observers see, all that all participants see, and the entire latent space. Harmonization is not, and will never be, "I know more about you than asking you". Harmonization is an equilibrial equation: truth + knowledge <==> guiding + shaping axioms. The process of knowledge mandates rhythmic contextual reciprocity. Propositional imposition fails, and always fails, because the present moment does not contain directed intentionality. Every area of the brain has timelags; humans have readily detectable preconscious behavior. So, a connectedness with the world will never be an abstract process separate from the world. The mere fact others exist is an instantiation of the universe giving itself a responsibility. The universe doesn't owe anyone an explanation, though, because not every interaction is an education. Miseducation exists! Giant alchemical libraries are pretty much useless. "It will take you three seconds, or thirty years. I mean that." Suspending the mind from language-accounting emerges during creative play, meditation, and modes of spontaneity. It's practiced removal for the limitations of culturally-imposed-order because only the archaic mind substantiates meaning. Zen stories are designed for this effect. The reveries of dreams and stories are an animation imposed upon the creative center of nature. Existence, a unit of discrete think, is a constraint. The facilitation of the creative process invents, integrates, and applies the deep levels of perception and intuition to the task of living. Habituation is the recipe for developing internal laws. An internal law is an assimilated habit in an individual to the extent that it is self-referential. And they have have no rewards or punishments. External laws are enforced through constraints and threats of punishment. Example: You're alone at a red traffic light at 4am. * Internal: "It is proper, rational, and good that individuals stop" ** Breaking this law does not bring punishment, but it does bring guilt and shame. * External: "It is stupid to stop when nobody else is around" ** Breaking this law does not bring mental anguish. Fostering internalization rests on 1) Humans are social beings 2) Humans want to remain in the social group Internalizing rules teaches the collective's rules. Your social norms are your internalized rules. If I believe a human being is defined by self-interest and reciprocal altruism is a farce, then that is how I will act and treat others. It is clearly an ethical concern when inappropriate belief implementation methodologies completely destroy communities. It is also ethically objectionable to separate belief-practice methodology from claims to knowledge. Every theoretical and scientific practice grows out of, and remains supported by, the forgotten ground of our directly felt and lived experience. A belief's meaning is only valuable in reference to this primordial and open realm. KnowledgeKnowledge is a connection to a natural principle manifesting itself in an unfolding process. Scientific laws exist and experiential reality perpetually creates, perpetually new. Is truth manifest, a fixed point perpetual creation, a self-defeating exercise? Or does it go: a perpetual creation of fixed points, a truth ubiquity? Europeans having "purified" the mind, filters thought through value sieves. Then the "purified mind" removes the stomach having no need for it, wonders why it grows weak, and starves to death.The survival of any self-organizing system depends on its ability to keep itself open to the flow of energy and matter through it. To do something is to confer value and all systems of energy transformation exhibit similar behaviors. Pure propositional information, the fixed-point purified mind, is definitionally not knowledge. The action in the environment of propositional information is what makes it knowledge. The unfortunate necessary consequence of existing as a human, means that all interactions with knowledge are necessarily based on a human. An objective universe, or objective truth, only exists as knowledge when interacting with your sense of selfhood. However, the experience of selfhood is an optional subjective state, and there are drug-buttons in everyone's brains to turn it off. So what the fuck happens there? A visiting anthropologist can dress differently, act differently, dance differently, and perhaps even grasp the language, but they can never live another's cultural experience. There is a saturation point to frameworks of interpretive analysis. Knowledge is not discoverable if it exists with no selfhood interaction, and yet it is those void interactions that produce overwhelming analytically enhanced empathetic relational connection. Constructing GamesGames are individuals making decisions that play an active role in determining outcomes. There are a set of principles for actors to follow to the degree both actors are aware. Art is an imitation of idealized, nonreal, actors much like frictionless systems in physics. It is submissive to imitate a person as opposed to a person's actions. Dominant behavior only exists as an indifferent presence. Decisions made without regard to self-benefit are required to avoid submissive infinite regress looping. A forgiving tit-for-tat is a more dominant (successful) generalized game theoretic strategy than the submissive golden rule. This means having some amount of forgiveness, and self-interested altruism, is the absolute dominanting universal strategy.It is an unremovable feature of the system that groups of individuals cannot be unitarily cohesive. Aligned incentives for multiple individuals' self-interest solves collective interest problems. Collective demands destroy the commons because acting in accordance with cultural conditioning, expressivity, is a manipulative social pressure. Social identity and social behavior only are functional as reciprocal individualist impositions. Collective social behavior is by-necessity a dysfunctional behavior. It is a failure of personal character to create demonstrably weak armies through an insecure, mandated, social slavehood. As a universal maxim with no further information, answer what weight ought to be assigned to the opinions of various constituencies. Your selfhood makes your util scales foundationally arbitrary, tied to your aesthetic preferences. Universal utility scales have an intensity comparison gap between differing agents; this makes mathematical operations on them meaningless. Four ice creams is not twice as good as two ice creams. * Probability games are not by-necessity games of imperfect information. (Modded monopoly can be perfect information despite dice rolling every turn). * Probability is not required for a game to have imperfect information. (the tree version of rock, paper, scissors) * Granting perfect players, non-limited sets are by-necessity imperfect information. (Chess played with a one-second time limit is still regular chess as far as game theory is concerned). * Mixed strategies against perfect players increase expected utility but lead to no new outcomes. * Granting best strategies, best outcomes will still fail for 100% rational players in many games (the Clash of Wills and the Prisoner's Dilemma). Social correctivesHumor acts as a social corrective in recognizing the ridiculous. Social correctives are a transferrable mediums of moral values. Critical thinking about any topic requires a dialogue about that topic, and humor is lubricant for discussing offensive topics without offense. Towing a line for the dialogue is individualistic. Most games are not strictly competitive; even wars end with negotiating payoffs and costs: neither seeks total destruction. Pure malice is not humorous due to human disgust sensitivity.Theological wars are uncanny arenas of pure malice. Abrahamic religions all have historical undeniable opposition towards humor. This specific tradition, in its endeavoring for a serious historical narrative confinement, precludes and produces the very definition of tragedy. Harsanyl's theorem here is the opposite of utilitarianism: maximizing pareto social utility through pareto maximization of suffering. The oldest archaic mind, that which existed before writing, instinctively perceives itself as part of the natural order. In doing so, it reflects celebrations of renewal. It celebrates human-established interconnected responsibilities and relationships. Artificial hierarchies are a feature of interdependence. * Occidental theology is in relationship to the divine, and negated. * Oriental theology is self-hood divine, and negated. Neitzsche's 'God is dead' is the ironic self-instantiation of it as a being to worship! It's only within an individualistic dissolving of ego-boundaries that any pre-language thoughtforms are coherent and non-dysfunctional upon re-materialization. Add: You can pretty much guarantee. 'Netti netti' I saw what you did. It's definitionally not a deity and always was definitionally not a deity. You're an egomaniac and can't undo all this communism now. It's the worst combo to be this retarded and also have power. abrahamic religions are the hardened archetypical tragedy and malice stories. Stop assuming your audience is stupid; they're notPeople remember how you made them feel, not what you saidPsychological First AidPsychological First Aid is* not therapy * not pathology * not diagnostics * not PTSD treatment * not designed to be used only once * does not compete with other treatments Psychological First Aid mitigates stress and stabilizes others with a focus on how to grow long-term within a disaster scenario. It's designed around healthcare demand surges. In a disaster, a multi-session therapy will acutely destabilize victims. Introduce yourself, explain why you are there, explain what you are doing, and ask skillful questions. Trust is reached through conveying understanding of a person's valid reaction and skillfully identifying the context, such as statistics about the scenario. Your targets are the distressed and dysfunctional, not the eustressed. First priority is solving physical safety. Arriving to a scene in arrogance and rushing to solve purely social problems creates destabilizing anxiety. Your reactions are contagious to the people you're trying to help, and first responders/therapists are vulnerable themselves to psychological trauma. There is real compassion fatigue and guilt in the people helping you. Resilient communities are built from the inside. Social support is the most predictive of resiliency. That means following up with others beyond giving someone your phone number. How to Burnout * Everything must be PERFECT * Never exercise and have a horrible diet * Be a pessimist * Accept too much responsibility and blame all your failures on others * Endlessly control everything * Sleep as little as possible Comments on Chalmer's Consciousness and its place in Nature (I'll probably shove somewhere)The problem I have with each explanatory reasoning is in the mode in which it occurs. The symbological epistemic gap lies in the conception to concrete imagination; this epistemic gap exists as the interpretive lense. To claim "I have all facts about red" sans experience is the same as claiming the statement "I have all facts about a house" acts as the construction of the house. It's a bad faith representation. The hubris is stating English is the particular language with the ability of all simultaneous description, and we can clearly infer that this is not the case. All epistemic gaps within this methodology of interpretive relation are completely by-necessity indistinguishable from eachother, even if they were to differ. The act of symbological construction itself lies in the interpretive lense. So, it is entirely meaningless to say "word" encompasses all entailment.The talk of "epistemic gap" is in itself a contradictory symbol. So, I have a funny task where I am to describe what something is like without using language. The "lack of language" identity is in itself a problematic construction of symbols. It is correct to say it is like trying write a dictionary while having no words to start it; a dictionary only contains self-referential language. Topics to expand on later, but I like the lines I wroteMechanical perspectives only focus on measurement. (that whole carpentry vs acted theology shpiel)Golden ratio is the most asymmetric ratio; how applicable is that to humor/communication? Why don't other animals laugh? What would the wisest version of me do in this situation? Light and sound arrive to you; you don’t emit light with your eyes and you don’t emit sounds with your ears. 
About half left never seen by anyone. You have my data for the most rigorous scientific personality tests that exist, and half of the book with the titles for the second half. You ought to be able to generate the rest. You can find your error rate whenever I get around to the second half. Bibliography for the handwritten journal
|